My Dad sms me today, "Why don't you change job?". I wasn't exactly shocked but I was kinda taken by surprise. Cos it really came out of the blue, we were discussing about our Man U victory before that. I know he's worried about my future. Honestly, I am too. After we hung up, I told Brother about me worrying that I dunno where to go or what I can do if I leave this current one (this has been my worrying prob which I have already discussed with a few frens). He just casually said "Have...IR lah." This answer really gave me a hard knock on the head.
How can I forget?!! This is in fact the very reason why I took up this current job. Its an indescribable feeling. I was so engrossed in the downside of things, the problems in front of me that I forgot my initial goal which was actually beyond all this. I had forsaken the vision I had for these short term elements in my face. How can I forget... I still can't figure it out. But I really have to thank Bro for this unintentional reminder. My goal may change along the way, the circumstances may one day not even allow me to achieve my goal. But at least, at this very moment it is what I want and I am going to work towards it, one way or another.
Given the above situation, I somehow see the same rational with relationships. It works the same way. As you are in a relationship, problems start to occur, temptations are all around and you tend to forget why you fell in love at the first place. All because you are too focus on what's in front of you. You spent all your time and energy to solve or enjoy the NOW, that you leave behind the past which was at first suppose to be your future. So many failed relationships I heard, and its the kind that are like close to marriage?? When you think of marriage and make plans on it, technically... doesn't it mean that you want to spend the rest of your lives together? So how come just by an email, a sms and it's over. They don't even want to see you and say a proper goodbye. It scares the hell outta me. It just simply potrays a picture of how fragile a relationship is. The word "love" is really too easy, too convenient and too cheap in this era.
What's love man. There's no definition to it already, it's like water, it fills in watever situation you want it to be in. No definite shape. I'm not saying everything leads to a "forever", but its really so easily disposable.
Now whenever I hear which ever fren is in a realationship, I'll be really happy for him/her. At the same time, I'll somehow kip my fingers crossed and hope for a happy ending. But even that, not even a teeny weeny of shock if I ever hear bad news about it. It''ll be like, its just another failed relationship.... So what?
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