Blabber

A new post but 2 months have actually pass. I can't exactly recall what I have been doing during this period. I often wonder to myself. What am I working for? Easy to say, it's money. But sad to say it's purely for money as well. Why doesn't interest last? I mean I was at first rather excited with my job and the people I meet and all that. But after some time, I start to wonder, am I suitable for this job? Can I eventually find a job that really satisfies me? Am I not good enough? We are constantly living in expectations. Your parents expect you to succeed in life. Your Boss expects results. Your partner expects more love. And you, expect more time for yourself.

Is it just me? Or are there many others alike out there? Meeting up with friends and chatting about life, helped me realise... There are indeed many unhappy people in this country. But why?

We have a secured environment, we live in prosperity, we have comfortable homes.... so... what exactly is missing? I can't put my finger to it. I just can't. So am I happy? At times... yea.. Especially weekends I'm sure. Am I unhappy? Not all the time... So am I just not satisfied with life or Am I unhappy? Can these 2 be seperated? Cos theres the saying thats goes, if you are satisfied with what you have then you'll be happy. So what exactly satisfies us?

I wonder.... I really wonder... forgive my million questions and blabbering. I think I'm in stone mode. I need to find my rhythm which I think I somehow lost it long ago....

I have learnt not to expect anything from anybody. For Expectations come dissappointments, Non-expectancy comes surprises.

In the end, I just want a simple life.... Thats too much to expect from this tiny country.