Shanghai Blues the Musical

Finally!! It's here! I have worked my ass off for this project people! Support Me!!! Ticket opens 1 Nov 07.

Enjoy the MV.



For clearer view,
you can go to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZIg2vCNxVI
Performance on 8 & 9 Feb 2008 at Esplanade Theatre. Show ur fren (Me!!!!) ur utmost support. I promise a fantastic show.

I can organize and we can all watch together. A form of gathering? I look forward to that. Should be fun. Call me if ya interested. Dun make me make you. You get what mean... Hohoho!

What Do You See?

My Dad sms me today, "Why don't you change job?". I wasn't exactly shocked but I was kinda taken by surprise. Cos it really came out of the blue, we were discussing about our Man U victory before that. I know he's worried about my future. Honestly, I am too. After we hung up, I told Brother about me worrying that I dunno where to go or what I can do if I leave this current one (this has been my worrying prob which I have already discussed with a few frens). He just casually said "Have...IR lah." This answer really gave me a hard knock on the head.

How can I forget?!! This is in fact the very reason why I took up this current job. Its an indescribable feeling. I was so engrossed in the downside of things, the problems in front of me that I forgot my initial goal which was actually beyond all this. I had forsaken the vision I had for these short term elements in my face. How can I forget... I still can't figure it out. But I really have to thank Bro for this unintentional reminder. My goal may change along the way, the circumstances may one day not even allow me to achieve my goal. But at least, at this very moment it is what I want and I am going to work towards it, one way or another.

Given the above situation, I somehow see the same rational with relationships. It works the same way. As you are in a relationship, problems start to occur, temptations are all around and you tend to forget why you fell in love at the first place. All because you are too focus on what's in front of you. You spent all your time and energy to solve or enjoy the NOW, that you leave behind the past which was at first suppose to be your future. So many failed relationships I heard, and its the kind that are like close to marriage?? When you think of marriage and make plans on it, technically... doesn't it mean that you want to spend the rest of your lives together? So how come just by an email, a sms and it's over. They don't even want to see you and say a proper goodbye. It scares the hell outta me. It just simply potrays a picture of how fragile a relationship is. The word "love" is really too easy, too convenient and too cheap in this era.

What's love man. There's no definition to it already, it's like water, it fills in watever situation you want it to be in. No definite shape. I'm not saying everything leads to a "forever", but its really so easily disposable.

Now whenever I hear which ever fren is in a realationship, I'll be really happy for him/her. At the same time, I'll somehow kip my fingers crossed and hope for a happy ending. But even that, not even a teeny weeny of shock if I ever hear bad news about it. It''ll be like, its just another failed relationship.... So what?

Blabber 2

After my blabbering post below, I decided to lie on my bed and think about the good things of my job.

1) I can wear casual. Jeans and Tees. My fav. Alot of jeolous people out there.
2) It's convenient. Chinatown! 1 direct train ride of only 25mins! More jeolous people!
3) Cheap & Good Food! Wah lan! Its everywhere!
4) Not much politics. I mean... Well.... Only 4 people in the office, that includes the GM and the
directors are often not in. Si mi politics to talk about?
5) The satisfaction after the completion of an assignment. Photoshoot, Press Con, Stage
Performance! Though efforts and time spent may sometimes not be paid off. But whee.... The
relief and the "I've done it!" kinda feeling. Sensational.
6) The wide circle of people I meet. Celebrities, the powerful, the rich, the poor, the bastards,
the bitches and many many more. You can't get that at just any job.
7) Celebrities gossips. It's funny how things that are none of my fucking business can actually perk work up a little. Lots of juicy juicy news indeed.
8) Invitation to parties, events, movies, etc... Free goodies, Free Food, Free alcohol... I'll slap whoever that says they wouldn't want that.

Sometimes I feel it's really amazing how a small company like us can pull off great, big shows. We are small in size, but big in the industry. We are definitely moving on to bigger things, bigger than what we have done, bigger than anyone would have ever imagined. I should really be patient. Wait and See...

Once again, I'm doing it. Self-Psycho: "I love my job. I love my job! I Loooooooove my Job!!!"
There! I'm back in love.
*Fingers Crossed* Please help me get through 24th Oct smoothly. Please Please Please?

Blabber

A new post but 2 months have actually pass. I can't exactly recall what I have been doing during this period. I often wonder to myself. What am I working for? Easy to say, it's money. But sad to say it's purely for money as well. Why doesn't interest last? I mean I was at first rather excited with my job and the people I meet and all that. But after some time, I start to wonder, am I suitable for this job? Can I eventually find a job that really satisfies me? Am I not good enough? We are constantly living in expectations. Your parents expect you to succeed in life. Your Boss expects results. Your partner expects more love. And you, expect more time for yourself.

Is it just me? Or are there many others alike out there? Meeting up with friends and chatting about life, helped me realise... There are indeed many unhappy people in this country. But why?

We have a secured environment, we live in prosperity, we have comfortable homes.... so... what exactly is missing? I can't put my finger to it. I just can't. So am I happy? At times... yea.. Especially weekends I'm sure. Am I unhappy? Not all the time... So am I just not satisfied with life or Am I unhappy? Can these 2 be seperated? Cos theres the saying thats goes, if you are satisfied with what you have then you'll be happy. So what exactly satisfies us?

I wonder.... I really wonder... forgive my million questions and blabbering. I think I'm in stone mode. I need to find my rhythm which I think I somehow lost it long ago....

I have learnt not to expect anything from anybody. For Expectations come dissappointments, Non-expectancy comes surprises.

In the end, I just want a simple life.... Thats too much to expect from this tiny country.