CUTS

1st CUT

Yup. I did it. I snipped my hair. After 2 years of irritation for keeping it long, to months of struggling with my decision of having it back short. I did it. And I luv it. For the way it looks, for the way it makes me feel, and for being me. I'm really not a gal of hassles. After the cut, I finally accepted this fact. I just like things simple and easy. Which... Can also be equivalent to being Lazy.

2nd CUT

Another thing that I have cut myself off from, is my work. Yes. I am gonna join the "Job-Less Club" real soon. After much advise, coaxing, gossiping, nagging and blah blah blah from various people, especially one person who just can't wait for me to say "BYE" to the shit-hole. I gave the white letter to my Superior. Also another decision that took me months to make. Of course i'm not leaving purely because of what people said. I mus be crazy to do that. But really, its not a place for me. This place, jus makes my morale low, confidence low, mood low... Everything jus 'down' there, cos the people I work for simply think they are 'up' there. Hiaks. Dumb-asses. Though there are bastards and bitches that I can't wait to wave goodbye to, there are also people and things I find, hard to leave. I can't bear to just give up all my work too. They are like my babies, from workshops to events. They are like unborn children... Especially 2 big projects that I have done all on my own, from nothing to slowly evolving into something. It's a little heartaching to know that I won't be there for their birth. Being the 23rd person of Year 2006 to tell the Club that they should really F off. I know this is the right decision, but I find it hard to convince myself sometimes. Maybe its the "whats out there ??" that gives me the shivers. It's a tougher road ahead of me, I'm nervous but at the same time excited. I hope this time, I really get what I want, not what I need. Bless me.

3rd CUT

This is it. After 3 years of pain and fatigue. Its done deal. I have cut myself from "___". Not physically... But mentally and emotionally. I'm sure of it this time. No more tears, aches, anger or suspicions. For now, all I have to this is 'shrugs'. I have grown much from here. An experience never will be forgotten nor taken. I learnt well. Though it took long.... Pick myself up and I walk again.

I love the CUTS.
For I'm Free.
CUTS: Freedom brought to me.