Ok. This din really bothered me till what my HRM told me today. Honestly, I din even wanna talk about it but now, I'm a wee bit worried...
Went for my medical checkup last week which I have dragged on due to my BZ schedule and of cos a cut of my laziness.. After much nagging from the admin dept for me to go, I finally did it. And oh man.... it ain't good news. The doc using her watever-scope listened to my heartbeat like a zilion times and said its not normal. She said she hear weird sounds and my heart rate is low... When I look at her expression, I can see how 'looow' she meant. So off she sent me to take some ECG test in the other room. This nurse stuck some sticky stuff all over me, from my chest all the way down to my foot. The machine started prinitng results, "zip.. zip... zip..". The next thing I hear is "huh??!!" Its the exclaimation from the nurse. Then she said "weird. Do it again." Nurse definitely not helping.... "zip zip zip.." I hear "A...... Why like that? " Still not helping here. Then I ask her, "is it bad??" Then she suggested we do a third time. And I passed. Its suddenly all normal. But Doc said, Nooooo. Not normal. She showed me the graphs and its like Shares..? Stable for a while and it just suddenly soar upwards like the fountain in bugis junction. She referred me to National Heart Centre, which I have to go this Thursday morning.. I gave her a "Are you serious???" look. Damn. Shes serious.
Well, after the check-up. I decided to stay positive and I get on with life as per normal even though my whole office is making a drama out of it. One even said, "No wonder you always so tired! Cos ur heart pump slow then ur head not enuff oxygen!" [she claimed shes serious abt it.] Ewww... They made jokes too! How evil.... I still play tennis, drink some booze (Martini Lychee... I like...), do some dance, play some pool and gorge myself with some sushi. Totally putting the slow beat shit outta my mind.
Right up to today.. My dear HRM said she spoken to her Doc Sis-in-law abt my situation and she said if its serious theres only 2 ways. 1) Do a bypass surgery. 2) Insert a stimulator to my heart. I don't wanna be cut up!! *sobs* And she comes up with some story on her fren who suddenly feels tired all the time and just died of liver cancer. Then she told me to be careful and do something abt it, cos my heartbeat might just stop like that. And it seemed like i'm taking it lightly and still so damn relax. Thank you very much. So I asked her, "What can I do now? I can't do anything until the results are out right?" OK. I admit I do feel tired & sleepy rather often, but its only when i'm not doing anything or doing something that doesn't quite interest me. Like when I'm working, when i'm in lectures, when I'm taking the train or bus. I do feel breathless once in a while, but in some situations, lemme tell ya. I'm more awake & energetic than anyone else.
Urgh.. Enuff of lamenting.... 2 bad news from my grams and uncle is enuff for all to take. I dun wanna be in the list. For now, I can only pray hard that I'm in fact 'unique' and not 'abnormal'. Like what I told Mich. I rather Chiong and die on the dancefloor than Moan and die in bed. Hows that?!
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