O.K.

Recently, quite a few people have been asking me. "How's life?"
My answer to that has been, "ok lor..." And I will stress it to them again after that, "its really OK only." I dunno wat I am trying to tell them OR expect them to do. But life has become pretty stale for these past 2 weeks.

Have you ever felt like this?
What you use to have fun in isn't fun anymore.
What you use to enjoy so much isn't enjoyable anymore.
The work that you had so much passion for isn't passionate anymore.
The home you feel oh so comfortable in isn't comfy anymore.
You dun even feel like talking at all sometimes.

Everything seem to be so still... so boring... so not in place.
Yea.. I keep having this feeling that something is missing and life just don't feel right this whole time.
You drag your feet to almost everything that you need to do. Even the things you want to do becomes only a need and you are so damn close to "forcing" yourself to do it only becos you have to. Theres just no kick in anything at all.

I dunno how long this is gonna last but I hope it ends soon. Cos if this goes on any longer I have a strong feeling that I'm gonna be autistic. An OK life just isn't enuff. An OK life is not for me. An OK life just ain't OK no more.

I need some spark here. Maybe I need a vacation... Someone please pack me up and take me somewhere. Bangkok? Phuket? Bintan? or even Bali again... Whatever. I dun even care if the tsunami's gonna hit me.

I'm a spoilt kid. So what.

##And having to work on a Saturday from 2pm - 10pm really doesn't f**king help.