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Since young, I have always been amazed by how fate brings people together. I'm not saying base on BGR only. I'm saying all sorts of relationships. Human to Human; the links.

How specifically or how strongly do I believe in fate? Much. I can go as detailed as this. "Wow. It's amazing.. If that didn't happen, I wouldn't have met you again and we won't be this close." or "If I haven't met XX , I wouldn't have been in this stage. I wouldn't have open my eyes to the world like that. I wouldn't have seen so much. I would have been a different person altogether." That kinda thing. I sound like a stupid freaky gal I know. But, its me.

And so, of course, it does impact me rather deeply on how fate pulls people apart too. Especially for those I care very much for. Its tough. It's like you took a long time to build a castle, without you knowing, earthquake came and the whole castle crumbles within a split second. It's so fast, you find it hard to believe. And you took awhile more to accept the simple fact. No one there to rebuild it, even if there is, its a different one. May be a better one but you may never see one. It's gone. And the most irritating fact is, you can't control it. Cruel.

Having someone you walked almost every street with, you do omost everything with and say omost everything to. Today, you are left with superficial stuff. You talk about things that didn't use to matter at all, you're left with "Hi, how have you been?" or worse still.... You dun tok at all. You can stroll the same streets, do the same things, say the same words but you walk alone. It's truly sad. Cos all you can do is just sigh, then take a deep breath, a shrug of shoulders, smile and tell yourself its time to move on. Everything seemed so familiar but feelings so different.

Partners turned Strangers.
Friends turned Acquaintances.
Enemies turned Allies.

Of course, a twist of fate and the coin may jus filp.

In the end, believe it or not. Its not up to You or Me.

"Click" & let your troubles "Drift" away....

Took a short break away from work. I had a good 4 days of rest. In these 4 days, I did practically nothing. I tink my eyes and mouth were the only parts of me that were moving most. All I did was sleep, eat and watch TV, movies. I jus gorged myself with food (mum has been feeding her gal pretty well) and be happily entertained with the box. I did swim for a day, tried to tan but it rained most mornings, played pool on Sat watched the fireworks. Its none contributive to the society. But hey! I feel darn good!

Watched "click", "the breakup", " the ant bully" & "Fast n Furious; tokyo drift".

Kinda surprised that "click" actually made me cried more than i laughed. Its not fantastic, but it does depict the truth that sometimes we just want to click some situations away. Fast forward it. like.... my mum nagging at me?! my boss giving me shit?! the long meetings, arguments.. but its these that completes life. Life can't jus be about happy stuff, we need the shit to live a better and happier future. But honestly, pass me the remote & I will still gif that little gimmick a 'click'. :p

"the breakup" hmm.... its just a movie about a couple who just can't communicate? Thats it. Sorry Aniston, as much as i luv u, its crap. But dun be sad, at least u've gotten Vince. Though u look too perfect for him but maybe theres no such thing as the perfect couple. Look at Brad, he's got the sexy but ultimately crazy cum 'love the children' Jolie. Shes not perfect either. I somehow feel these 2 couples may just last. Good job Vince. *pats on back* ewww.... its none of my bloody business. Move on, Jo!

"ant bully" ... its a movie that I was forced to watch? haha... cos i have a chip fren who luvs luvs luvs cartoons? It did remind me that we do things that ain't right cos we are angry. So anger actually clots our brains and pushes us to do dumb things. Anyway, its a great movie for little kids. Not for me though.... A kid, but a BIG kid orite!

"fast n furious; Tokyo drift" Cars, babes, and more babes. I was clenching my teeth for most of the scenes, cos its damn nerve wrecking. And it does in fact gives a teenie weenie bit of life lessons. Dun tink about the story, it'll ruin the movie. Jus enjoy the ride.



*fireworks* Haven't felt so free, so peaceful for a long time. I was actually working, bringing my members of 5 boats to watch the fireworks (some event that I created). I was glad i was there. Wow... mesmerizing. Its jus so beautiful. Jus sitting there on the tip of the boat, drifting, so close to the picture of beautiful colors. I can't really describe the feeling. I had no family or frens there wif me then. But i just felt right in place. Suddenly, work doesn't seem that bad, life doesn't seem that miserable. I call it "the moment". I remember the last time i felt like this was when i was in the States. Quote from 'Tokyo Dirft': "At that moment, everything just disappears. no past, no future, no problems."

Its the moment that matters. I realised moments are created by oneself. I did not create the fireworks of course. But i created the chance to be there, to feel it. So kudos to myself.
And hereby, I hope for many more 'moments' to come. ;)

Its cliche, but life is really too short to be unhappy. Chip's right, be it good or bad, its not gonna last. We have our very own remote actually, we have choices. Either click our troubles away or let it stay and haunt us. Of course there will be times/things that will make me angry or sad. But I wun let it stay long enuff to hurt me. What's gone is gone, I have to accept that. At least what's here is still here. :)

Have a Happy Life.

O.K.

Recently, quite a few people have been asking me. "How's life?"
My answer to that has been, "ok lor..." And I will stress it to them again after that, "its really OK only." I dunno wat I am trying to tell them OR expect them to do. But life has become pretty stale for these past 2 weeks.

Have you ever felt like this?
What you use to have fun in isn't fun anymore.
What you use to enjoy so much isn't enjoyable anymore.
The work that you had so much passion for isn't passionate anymore.
The home you feel oh so comfortable in isn't comfy anymore.
You dun even feel like talking at all sometimes.

Everything seem to be so still... so boring... so not in place.
Yea.. I keep having this feeling that something is missing and life just don't feel right this whole time.
You drag your feet to almost everything that you need to do. Even the things you want to do becomes only a need and you are so damn close to "forcing" yourself to do it only becos you have to. Theres just no kick in anything at all.

I dunno how long this is gonna last but I hope it ends soon. Cos if this goes on any longer I have a strong feeling that I'm gonna be autistic. An OK life just isn't enuff. An OK life is not for me. An OK life just ain't OK no more.

I need some spark here. Maybe I need a vacation... Someone please pack me up and take me somewhere. Bangkok? Phuket? Bintan? or even Bali again... Whatever. I dun even care if the tsunami's gonna hit me.

I'm a spoilt kid. So what.

##And having to work on a Saturday from 2pm - 10pm really doesn't f**king help.