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I simply can't think of any title for this post. Things happened so fast but yet when I was in the process of it, felt like its forever.

I was happily attending my cuzzie's wedding dinner on Sat night and right after the occasion I received this sms from a close fren of mine. "Jolene, my dad passed away." A healthy man, with no sickness, no history, no signs at all jus left his daughter and wife like that in his sleep. He's only 49.

I spent the next 2 days by the gal's side at the wake. She cried everytime she peeked into her dad's coffin. It pains her to see him like that, pale and stiff. I can feel that she doesn't want to see him becos she noes she will break down all over again. She needs to stay strong for her mum. But she wants to see him too becos she can't bear not to. Becos she wun be able to in future. It's hard. Really. It's hard for people our age especially. If it's a kid, he'll be too young to understand the pain, if lets say we got older maybe like at age 40+, we come to accept death, and at that time we would have fulfilled some of our responsibility to repay our parents. But now, it's tough. We jus started to carve a career of our own, and look forward to take the responsibility of giving to our folks, and if they didn't wait for that to happen. It's a feeling of mission unaccomplished, its a feeling of owing one so much and unable to return the favour. One so close that suddenly leaves you. It's painful. She was intending to bring the folks to Thailand for their first trip overseas during May.....

The thought of losing someone dear so suddenly really gives me the chill. It kept me thinking for 2 nights but I can't pinpoint what. It's jus a tough weekend.

My fren regretted some of the things she didn't do or did to him. I said everything to console her, but I know at that point of time it wouldn't help much. So I decided to just keep my silence on that, be by her side, cried with her, chatted casually and at times give her a supporting pat.

And so now, it's all over. Life goes on.... Doesn't it?