These few weeks has been crazy. It's a vigorous roller coaster ride. I felt stress, sadness, a little bit of happiness all on me during the past month. Not only me, even the people around me are going through a hard time. Breakups, Career decisions, Quarrels. It's insane. I hate this! And I wish it'll stop!
For the past month, most of us are busy with classes and stressed over the Graduation Project. Though its very last minute work, but I can tell u it had always been at the back of our minds. N that made us unhappy. Now, its finally over, it felt like heaven. Thats the little bit of happiness I was talking about. It was short. Beginning of May I was going through this emotion drama thing and at the end of the month it was Mich. We both hated May. It sucked. It's a horrible month for us. Too emotional.
Now, Grams is sick in the hospital with 4th stage cancer. Totally unexpected, no signs at all. Even if i expected cancer, I din expect it to be at such a late stage. I just cried alone in the hospital feeling down, lonely n helpless after the Doc broke the news. Haven't felt this sad for a long time. So many things just kept running in my mind and when it does, I become emotional.
I can't take this anymore. When can I ever jump out of this ride? This ride that has been going for so long with no destination. Please stop torturing me. Let me go.
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