Hmm.....
How do i actually start this?
It all happened about a week ago... I chatted with my fren, Rynn, telling her how much I actually need a guy right now. Being single for my whole life was getting on the nerves of me, I felt lonely and I really need this guy to help me forget someone as well. N so I told her, "You know what? If theres any guy whom I think is alrite, I think I will just jump into it. Can't take it anymore"
And miracurously, it did happen.
A guy really came along. He's cute (no doubt about that), he's gentlemanly, the first date wasn't too bad and he meets quite a few of my requirements. eg, no siblings. I know it sounds stupid, but trust me, siblings are simply a hassle. And if i'm not being oversensitive, he did drop hints on you know what. It got me into a dilema. And so I consult my best frens Bell and Rynn, on what I should do or what they think during our blading trip jus last Friday. They encouraged me to go for it. Rynn reminded me "You said yourself if you find any guy thats alrite you will jump into it what. So why the dilema?!" I couldn't answer her. And the next thing I know, being the lousy bladder I am, I actually fell awkwardly and may I say awfully as well. It's Horrible! I thought I fractured my bone to be honest.
This fall kept me at home and kept me thinking through a few things.
It is then I realised:
1) I just can't accept just anyone. It was just speech on impulse. That 'anyone' has to be special.
2) That someone I hoped could be there when I fell, can't be there and will never be there.
3) The person never loved me back, so why waste the brain cells, heartaches and some sleepless nights.
4) I felt happier, less obligated and less stressful when the "cute guy" didn't call. He's just not for me.
5) I'm glad that I have Rynn n Bell, my 2 great frens n I love them dearly. Thanks Gals! Thanks for always being there for me.
6) It's a little cliche but I'm still gonna say it. I can be just as happy alone. No....., not alone, with just all my frens.
:) Love ya People! And
Hail To Singlehood!!
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